I wanted to punch him. My ex boyfriend had cheated on me with one of his coworkers. I still remember the anger I felt at the though of being lied to. The sun was setting. I looked up at the sky and everything seemed fuzzy. The orange and red colors of the sky seemed to match the fire and shame I felt.
I let my emotions get the best of me. I made this much bigger than what it had to be.
I could have moved on and kept my sanity instead of being miserable.
But it’s okay. I’m here to tell you, be silent. It has helped me in countless times after that incident. The first step is to first notice the anger.
Because you will be angry. We are human. But you can notice it. Invite it in for tea. Listen to it. Let it. Detach.
Then take a deep breath. Yogis say that lives are not measured in years, but by the number of breaths you take. Slow down your breathing.
It’s going to be hard. They’re going to feel like bullshit breaths. It’s okay. It’ll pass.
If you’re angry with someone, remember: You can always yell at them tomorrow if you still feel like it.
But for today, don’t let it cloud your judgment.
Robert H Schiller describes it perfectly: “Never cut a tree down in the winter time.”
The universe is infinitely expanding and filled with magic exploding and bursting in every corner. We’re just a speck of dust in it all. Every time we worry get further and further from that magic that want you to touch it.
Nothing is ever so important it can’t wait.
Sorry for the late email.
I was waiting for the right time to send it. Hopefully it got to you in time, my baby.